Thursday, November 19, 2009

The Prodigal Blogger

Picture of my Mother and Nancy buttoning up my dress.

It has been a long time avoiding writing and I have really missed blogging, not only because of the creative outlet but because of the people I "meet" through doing it. Thank you so much for your sweet comments asking where I am. I'm here and always brewing posts in my mind but just couldn't make myself post. I think there is just too much bubbling and I find it hard to focus.

Despite that, I am writing and hope to get back to regular posting. I knew that my first post back would have to share the monumental changes in my life. My Mother died. It really hurts to write that and I miss her so much. I never knew how transforming losing a parent is until it happened to me. I could write many words but there really are no words to describe the loss. There is a part of me that wants to make her proud more than ever, and that has to include using my gifts to help others. As silly as it sounds that I love to help people clean out closets and declutter, it is my calling.

Another huge change in our lives is that my husbands brother, wife and 11 year old son moved in with us in August. We have the room in our house but two families living in the same house has been a huge adjustment for us.

So I hope you'll come back and visit me as I try to write more often. When I went home for a few weeks I helped my Aunt Delores clean out her house and I have a lot of advice stemming from that experience! I also gained some perspective on how not being organized can affect your family when a death occurs. More to come!


6 comments:

Kristine said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. The only thing helpful I can say is be gentle with yourself. I lost my father when I was 19 and I understand what you mean when you say how transforming it can be. Take care.

Anonymous said...

I am so glad you are back and will be praying for you during all these transitions. That photo of you and your mother is a very special one.

Andrea said...

I was so happy to see an update in my inbox tonight.
I'm very sorry for the loss of your Mom. I hope that you are surrounding yourself with love and are enjoying wonderful memories of her at this tough time.
I'm excited about your new journey ahead. I need some help de-cluttering and being more organized.

Bonjour Madame said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you! Glad to see you back. You are always such an inspiration.

Sarah B said...

I was so sad to hear of your Mom's passing. You know I've been there so feel free to call me if you need to chat. I too cherish the picture of my Mom helping me into my wedding gown - it was the last big milestone she was with me for.
I'm glad you are back in the blogging world. I miss seeing you in person, but we are trying to get closer to the SL area and that should make things easier.

Nadine Jolie said...

I so appreciated your sweet comment on my blog about my mom, and then I read that your own mother had died and came here.

I completely understand and relate to what you wrote about wanting to make her more proud, and now feeling spurred to use your gifts to help others. For me, this year swung wildly between being motivated and excited, and using my mom's death as a catalyst for taking charge and not wasting time...and being confused, feeling stuck-in-the-mud, not wanting to do work at all, and feeling angry at friends for not "properly" supporting me or remembering to ask how I was doing.

At the one year mark, I feel good and great and at peace and resolved 95% of the time...but when that 5% rears its ugly, sad, childish, lonely, missing-her-so-badly head: wowza!

Writing has been one of the most therapeutic things for me through the process, and I bet it might be the same for you. I wish you love and luck and support and kindness and happiness this year as you deal with the loss, and will be back to check up on you through your blog. :)

xo, Nadine

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